Walking.

Last night I decided that since I knew it was going to be nice out that I would walk to the grocery store to pick up my BC pills instead of driving! So this morning after August woke up and had his breakfast and I had my breakfast we went upstairs and I tired putting him down for a nap...not happening! So I put him on the bed with his paci, remote and pillows and turned on the boob tube to Yo Gabba Gabba.. he LOVES that show.
I took a really quick shower, got ready, got August stuff ready and then got him ready. We set out for our walk at 11:03. It started to get really hot! I put my small little cardigan over the stroller to shield the sun from August's face. He ended up falling asleep. We got to Matt's work 30 minutes later and then I went over to the grocery store to pick up my BC, some bandaids for my feet, some fish crackers for Augie, some new paci's and sippy cups. Then August and I went to TNT's and got a child's chocolate/vanilla yogurt. It was really good, and August ate more than half of it! Then Matt called and we decided to go to HANG OUT THAI CAFE.. it's really good and really cheap! We ate there and then hung out in the back of his truck. I really didn't want to walk back home because my feet were hurting so bad, but I did of course. So I got August a bottle and we headed back.. Took me about 25 minutes to get back home, took off my shoes when we got close to the house because my feet hurt so bad.
I feel so refreshed, and I think August really enjoyed it. He likes being outside and the past week with all that rain we didn't go outside!
Anyway.. that's my long story of my short walk!
I need to change a diaper...oh motherhood.

Blog it.

So I haven't blogged in awhile, I guess I don't have time...?
Well I don't even know what I blogged about last.
All I know is Friday we have an appointment that is going to change our life for the better.
We have alot going on right now and things are going to get better. I feel like the last few months so many doors have slammed in our face, and finally slowly new doors are opening, showing a light at the end of this dark tunnel we have been in.

August -
He has almost 8 teeth, and it's crazy. He isn't crawling or walking, but I think he will soon. He has been really cranky today and it's given me a headache.

I can't believe in 2 months he will be 1! We are doing a robot themed party, I am excited!
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So sick..

So my work is stressing me out so much that it is making me sick. The past few weeks I have been so unhappy. I used to love my job, love the people I work with, and I didn't really think it was work because I had so much fun doing what I do. But lately it is the complete opposite. I can not stand half the people I work with, no one does their job, they promise homeowners things and then don't fulfill their promises! They are ALWAYS late and call me to call the homeowner to let the homeowner know they aren't going to be there at 8:30..(well no shit, it's already 9!) They really don't respect people, they are really two faced a lot of the times. My boss was mad at my mom and hasn't spoke to her since.. and it's been about 2 months! She doesn't even know what she is suppose to be doing, no one does!
I really miss the way work used to be, but now I am only thinking about me, my health, and my family.. and I don't feel like working here is helping with my stress, my health, and spending actual quality time with my son!
I feel so miserable and it really sucks.

Stress, Emotions...

Lately I have felt like my heart is so heavy...my chest is in pain and I am so stressed out. I know why I am stressed, but right now there is nothing that I can do.

We aren't going to sale our house, we are going to try and work things out, but if it comes down to it, we might just have to.

I am really looking forward to the new year, I think it is going to bring great changes to Matt and I. I am really excited for new adventures that may come our way.

Happy Holidays.

Falling Behind...Catching Up...

We fell behind, we won't catch up.
We have decided to "Short Sale" our house.
It will be for the best in the long run. We want to move to Arroyo Grande or Nipomo, in a house with a backyard and 3 bedrooms.
This is going to be a long and stressful process, but we are ready.

MotherHOOD.

Ok, so the past few days August has fallen asleep on me while I've been holding him...and it melts my heart. He is so freaking cute while he sleeps and I just love being a mother. BUT when he is awake he pushes off of me and does not want me to hold him, he is getting really squirmy and it makes me really sad! He is getting so big so fast and it's real sad. I am having baby blues..it's weird. If I was pregnant today I would think it was really cool. August is already 7 months old and in 5 months he will be ONE! I am already planning his party in my head... ROBOTS!

That's all. Happy Birthday Faye.

Church

Last Sunday.. I went to church. I had not been to church since I think 2003 or 2004, with Matt's parents in Hoopeston. I told myself that I would go and see how I liked it. Well I loved it. I am really glad that I went. I will be going tomorrow as well. And August went too, and had his first experience in a "day care". He did really good, of course he was in the saucer the whole time.
Matt doesn't want to go, which I am having a really hard time with, but I think I just need to give it time...and maybe he will open up his heart again. He shared with me the night I asked him to go that he doesn't believe in "organized" religion.. which I understand, but at the same time, I have a hard time with it.

Other news, August will be 7 months old tomorrow! And today was the first day I didn't breast feed him! It was kind of weird, but I was ready and I think he was too. My boobs weren't producing anything really. I think he just sucked to suck! And I just didn't stop because it's been something we have done ever since he was born! But today I said... this is it.. and I gave him a bottle when he first woke up, no problems.

My boobs don't hurt as of yet.. maybe tomorrow they will but whatever I'll deal with it. It's not like they are producing much any way!

Faye's birthday party is tomorrow and I'm really excited about it! August is going to dress up in his Halloween costume!!!

Um.. ok..
OH and we haven't had a dryer in 2 weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We finally get a new washer and dryer on TUESDAY! Thank you Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!