I had a break down..

So we went to the Dodgers/Cubs game yesterday and I knew it was going to be hot, but I didn't think it was going to be THAT hot. It was probably around 90 degrees, it was gross. Our seats where in the sun, which was not good because August would not have been safe in the sun, in that heat. So we sat in the shade in other people's seats and everything was fine. But then around the 3rd inning those people arrived so we had to move. Matt ended up taking August up to the walk way area and then I went up there and saw that a lady had put two chairs there for us to sit. There was a lady with two little girls next to us and she told me that I could go into the "luxury suites" and feed and change him and get some air conditioning. So I started to head towards the elevator and August was starting to freak out. He was getting really hot and really annoyed. I started to choke up when I was telling the guy at the elevator where I needed to go. Once I got off the elevator and August was screaming I saw a lady that worked there and told her what was going on, but I couldn't even talk because I was crying. I was so stressed out because August was not looking good and I knew he was just really hot and tired and didn't like that heat. I didn't like the heat either, I got really dizzy when we first got there. I do not do well in heat, and I never have. Anyway, the lady was really nice and told me where to go. I had to wait for this guy and his little girl to get out of the family bathroom and as soon as I got in there I just broke down. I cried while changing August, he was still freaking out screaming and crying. I put a cold towel on him and kept him naked while I went to the bathroom. I tried to breast feed him but he didn't want to. The bathroom was kind of warm so I just got him dressed and went out into the lobby area. We sat down on the couch and there was another lady there with her 9 month old, but she was just there because he was asleep and the people in the room she was in were really loud and they were waking him up ( I think she was a players wife..or someone important's wife). Anyway I gave August a bottle and he finally cooled off, as did I. We went back up to enjoy the last 2 innings of them game. He was totally fine afterwards. I just got so stressed out because I didn't know what to do! The lady next to us was so nice though. She told me exactly what to say and do when I got down to the suites. I am so thankful for the lady that worked there too. She was so helpful and felt so bad that I was crying!

Then...last night as Matt and I were driving home we talked about having another baby, when we want to and what we want to have.. I would love to have a girl of course, but I would not mind having another boy..and that's when I cried again! I told Matt how much I cherish every moment I spend with August, no matter what mood he is in. I love him so much, he is our son, a part of me, and a part of Matt. I love being a parent, it's amazing.
So I told Matt that I think I want to have another baby before August is 2...well be pregnant before then. If it was up to me I would get pregnant again when August was 1 1/2. I would want to have the baby in the summer of 2011....we will see though.

That is all for now, just sharing what I went through yesterday and how I feel about having another baby.